About Us
Hello everyone.My name is Sandy and the first thing we want to say is welcome! We are so thankful that during this difficult time in your life you found this site. I guess this is a good time to tell you a little more about myself and my friend. My friend and I both know what it is like to walk through the "Valley of the shadow" of depression, anxiety and grief. Trust me.
My personal walk began 10 years ago, 1998, although I was going in and out of mini spells of depression for years and did not know what was going on. But in 1998 my world crumbled down around me. It started with insomnia. Which got worse and worse, til I was not sleeping at all. My husband had to call the ambulance one morning, because I had collapsed and just could not get up. At the hospital I told them about the insomnia and that I needed something to help me sleep. After a grueling time there, I was sent home with med's. But that night I did not sleep, I was wide awake again. What was going on? The next morning I looked at the ER sheet and saw the word DEPRESSION and the med's I had was some antidepressant, which wired me. That began my horribly long journey of denial. I was so weak, I could hardly walk and my husband had to almost carry me into the doctors office, where after an examination they told me that yes I was depressed but the sleep deprivation had to be taken care of first. So I went home with a sleep aide, and I finally slept. Now, I was sure I would get better. I wasn't depressed, I was just exhausted. I was still living in the land of denial. But all the sleep didn't help, I got worse and worse. I was weak, and tired, and so down I couldn't see up. Anxiety had become part of my everyday life, although at the time I blamed it on my low blood sugar. Still denial. Then one day in desperation, I finally cried out to God to please guide me to the help I needed. I finally admitted I had depression and just wanted my life back. That is when God guided me to a wonderful Nurse Practitioner, who was the first person not only to say I had depression, but took the time to explain what it was, and that there was hope. I wasn't going crazy! There was hope! Even though I still felt miserable, I could see a glimmer of light. She prescribed a mild anti-depressant, and I sought out a Christian Counselor, and I stepped onto the road to healing and recovery. I'm not going to say it was easy, because it wasn't. I went through 3 years of therapy and had to revisit events and pains, from my childhood that I never wanted to live through again. But it was important that I do this, and not just bury everything. Because what we bury, ultimately finds it's way to the surface and bites us in the butt. I had to trust in my counselor, which I did, and allow her to walk me through these times of abuse in my life, and feel the pain, only then could I let it go. Only then could I begin to heal. That was 10 years ago, and God has walked every step of the way with me. During those difficult times of revisiting the past, I felt His presence right beside me. I knew that I was safe and He would not leave me or betray me, like people had done. I was able to slowly grow from being merely a survivor to being a whole person. And it feels great. One of my prayers during this time was that all the pain I felt would not be for nothing. I prayed that somehow something good would come from it, which could be used to God's glory. And here I am 10 years later, writing to you, sharing my story with you and hopefully through this site and our support group, which you are invited to attend if you are in the area, bringing you hope. Even if it is just a little glimmer. I want you to know that you are not alone. There are others who know your pain. But there is one in particular who not only knows your pain, but feels it, and is right there in the middle of it with you. Holding you up, even if you don't feel it, He will not let you sink. That is our awesome Lord.
So once again we welcome you to this site. May you find hope and encouragement through the music, the poems and the inspirational passages. We have several important resources for you if you need to reach out for help or prayer. And we have a guest book which you can sign and leave us messages and prayer requests. We hope that you will come back to this site as often as you need and that you will continue to find hope and encouragement here. And we hope that through this site you will know that you are not alone.
